My Crazy Life And Its Problem...

I am just a normal teenager who is going through the same procces as other teenager or young adults but i dont think so i think the things i have gone through, no one else has gone through it.

Some times when i am stressed i think about suicide, because i get so many stress from diffrent people,

Espeacialy my dad he is sometimes is irratating, I know that is a harsh words coming from a son to his dad, but i dont know if he hates me or wants me to be a good citizen in society?

He wants what he wants, i cant make any decisons in my life not even the size of hair that i should cut ,he argues with me in the haircut shop come on for god's sake its my head!!!

I think i know whats best for my head and that just the begining he argue's with me about so many things like my diet the food i should eat ,what i should do in my free time like on a saturday he says i should sit at home, for fuck sake who on this planet sits at home on a saturday?

Another thing is we argue alot the we make-up, we make agreements like i say i wont go out ,i wont associate with my bad pals, and he says that he would listen to me ,give me what i ask for ,i keep my promise ,and he keeps his promise for maybe 2weeks and ignores me.

Like last week i ask him to renew my gym membership but he keeps on telling me okay then last night when i ask him to remind him instead he sparked at me and said "i will renew it when i feel like" like in a situation like that what should i do?

And remember he is the one who adviced me to enter ,or in more suitable words he made me enter because he caught me chewing miraa a subtance that scientists believe it is just like 2 cups of coffee that has no harm to the only harm is if you dont brush your teeth properly then it will be rotten.

To him its a big a big deal so i told him so what if i chew it? Then he told me "okay get out of my house and dont come back" i told him its okay because i can survive with out

Then i went to a pub which i normally chill at and i am like councillar there more than 30 people there that can accomadate me and feed me, as i chilled there while chewing guess who entered adolf hitler (my dad) remeber he tolded me to never come back, he entered and slapped me, people saw it and stood up there where atleast 20
Drunk people and 10 people who were high that were ready to fight for me then i just tolded them to chill out.

Ask my dad why he embarrasing me infront of every one, then told me to enter his car and we talked and made-up i thought he kicked me out and never come back, i dont why he wants me so badly? i just dont understand but i wish i had never made-up with him, and thats just the bullshit i go though and thats just from my dad.

Other peopld like my mom who is accoss the other side of the world in uk, and still gives me hard time on the phone when i am in nairobi, kenya she loves the life-style of rich people but she doesnt have it she loves to boast when she travels but people dont know how much she struggles, i used to live with her in the uk but she sent me to eygpt to study well, but that never worked out so she sent me to nairobi, to study.

But her real intension was me to stay with my dad and work with with and eventually taking over his multi-million business imagine that!

She made come over here for me to take over and buy her everything she wants, no one cares about me and what i need and want, every one wants me to become like my dad and be successful

When i was caught earlier in december for chewing he made work at a shop in town for his friend ,and imagine i dont get a salary ,i work my ass off , but he doesnt believe me, he thinks i slack off, In shop i sell computer's for more then its asking price cause i know how to satisfy and convince custermer but no one appriciates that ,so now i dont know how to please all these people.

I posted to look for ways to solve because i am confused...

PLEASE SOMEONE HELP ME